You remind me of him.
The feeling that I am feeling right now, its no different from how I used to feel.

Home

At times on the way back from school, when it gets so cold, angry bustling winds start to blow and my body starts to shiver,

I wished my dad would appear and pick me up and bring me home in his Toyota. My mother would welcome me home with a warm motherly smile, her voice so melodious and so sweet. My grandmother would finish cooking, often with hearty meals that i love, after eating, it makes me feel so contented and loved. Brother always so eager to listen and to learn from my everyday stories and experience.

I miss you, family. so much.

back to black

I want jet-black hair now!!!!

why did i ever dye it light brown in the first place? gaaaaaaah. *trauma-ness*
now have to wait for another month only can dye again. babi betul.

The two pigs are nicely tucked in bed. Sleeping side by side, feeling so contented and safe in each other's arms.
He is so near, yet, I feel the distance taking it's toll already.

I finally understand how sometimes, I just cant hold you like I want to. You cant stay like how I always want you to. You cant be the guy whom I always thought I wanted. But it's okay, coz I like the way that you're so different, though sometimes it beats the joy outta me that you may just turn around and leave any moment, any day. I guess I'm just officially missing you.

addiction

My boyfriend thinks I am a junkie, an alcohol addict, but really, all I feel is feeling good.

I dont feel addicted at all.

Is there still anybody reading my blog? asal i see no comments waaaan.

susah susah jer i post banyak banyak pictures :\
*curls up in the corner and cry and shiver and act all dramatic"

It has already started snowing. got purdy purdy snowflakes all. all stick on my baju.

but, i am only going to show you one picture, not goin to show you banyak banyak coz its just only little little snow. nanti scared you all tak leh nampak, say i syok sendiri namapk snow plak.

shush your lips and do the egg flipping.

I am officially a professional egg flipper.
I flip eggs like how er...guys check out chick's boobs :3

i rase bored sikit.

you really wanna know what am I doing now? you really wanna know? really really really wanna know? haha.

I am blowing my hair, 1.42am -Russian time. I dont know laaaa..i love to wash my hair and shower during random times. I gotta get the feel you know, to go into the shower.

aiyoh..i really do not know what to do anymore after this. I've already ate, showered, washed my hair, washed my socks, beat up sih ching, and study...dont know what else to do now. hmm..maybe i should eat. yeah, thats what i will do. eat.

and and and..i wanna show you something really retarted. retarted future doctor's life.

hahahha..he is gonna kill me. but i cant help it, its just too disturbing, i gotta show it ;D

medical student tu. after too much of medical terminology and bio shit.

its messy, shows i am smart :0

this fly is half the size of my thumb. the russian flies are mitated, i
swear to God. They are effing bapak giler besar.

medical students again, Malaysia's future doctors. these are what they do in class.
now, doesnt it makes you think twice before stepping into clinics.

med school's walkway.

our class rep. uh-huh. future doctor. *stress giler* future doctors gone loose.

microscopic slide of the histological side of the Serous Glands.

kawan ku tu sangat rindu kat aweknya kat indon.

he took too much of the pink slides i showed you earlier.

i long to study you.

see people? i am doing fine here, dont worry. owh..my hair grow so long it can tutup half of my boobs dy. sexaay tu. hahahha xD

byebye.

dah lama kan? (:

Now, aint it a breath of fresh air? ;)

Sorry for not being World Wide Web ready for you guys. My dorm's internet sucks like eggballs. I got no internet till like end of october i think.
God, you guys wouldnt know how its like over here. I feel like some old lady over here; wash my blaaaaarday underwear and bras everyday -___- choose the fresh-est vegetables too
-____-''' and i cook also. and yes Karyee, I chosed the correct washing machine already!! ;D but hor, its darn darn noisy wan, I swear the noise will wake a dead corpus alive ;D

its so effing windy now :\ i think its gonna snow already. *exhale* i hardly see the sun, tahu? I miss malaysian sun so effing much. FISHBALLS la. and i didnt sweat for dont know how long already. I think ever since i sampai Moscow, i didnt sweat already. gah.

and dont ask me no more. TAK ADA JEJAKA HOT. period >:\


I miss all of you la.
Karyee, i got send you message, asal teda reply?!!!noob gila. eeleng also. noob punya. sam lagi noob. I know la my number macam weird gila, tapi reply la. Miss you guys tau.

there's so much to say, but dont know lah. like words cant really express tau :\ tapi you guys faham faham la my hati yeah? (:

*i am like freezing to death now* gaaaaaaaaaah~